我是蠢蛋。

我是蠢蛋。我是蠢蛋。我是蠢蛋。我是蠢蛋。
我是蠢蛋。我是蠢蛋。我是蠢蛋。我是蠢蛋。
我是蠢蛋。我是蠢蛋。我是蠢蛋。我是蠢蛋。
我是蠢蛋。我是蠢蛋。我是蠢蛋。我是蠢蛋。
我是蠢蛋。我是蠢蛋。我是蠢蛋。我是蠢蛋。
我是蠢蛋。我是蠢蛋。我是蠢蛋。我是蠢蛋。
我是蠢蛋。我是蠢蛋。我是蠢蛋。我是蠢蛋。

今天考完试的心情，只有一句话可以形容。
我真的觉得我是全班最笨的。

谁说付出就一定有结果？
我已经把一本foolscap paper用完了。
我那枝pen 的ink也用去一半了。
这样算不算付出？
还是，我依然不够努力？
我是不是应该更加努力？
.........
或是，我的脑袋根本是死一片的 。
我，根本就不属于这里。

看来，又是最后一名了。
哎~我是不是根本就不属于这一群人。
真的不知道他们的脑袋是装什么的。

突然有种回家的冲动。
突然觉得......
心.....
好痛......

心情烂透了。

可是还有2个assignment,一个quiz,一个presentation等着我。
连收拾心情的时间都没有。
哎~~

好想什么都不管了!!!

Life?

The last break that I did have is the easter friday.
It's almost 3 weeks that my life was just univ and home.
No eating out, no shopping, no socializing.
I don't have a life.
Everyday was so hectic, with neverending tasks...
it had been a week that i slept at 12 and woke up at 6am.
Feel even harder to breathe these days.
and i feel pain from my rib when i breathe hard.
maybe too stressed? haih......

Yesterday was another friday break for me.
Although i did go to univ to have a little chat with my supervisor,
and went home to type up something.
i wasnt really studying.
regret again today.
i should really do some research yesterday.

Now, I'm in the library doing some research on my thesis.
I'm still so blur with what i am doing and the presentation is next friday.
still got an assignment due in between and I havent start writing yet.

God help me.